It's no fun when you can't poop - Tom Hagen

Well...my dad was right. Being on stool softeners, pepcid pills, IV fluids, and contraction stoppers...it has been quite a ride today. I thought after many, many hours (20+) on the monitor watching baby's heart beat and contractions, that I would be released to get off. Nope...not the case. I was only able to be off the monitor today for two things. Taking a shower and doing my hair (which only took a total of 30 minutes) and my wheel chair ride tonight (total of 30 minutes). After the episode that I had last night with the many contractions and the deceleration, my doctor came in tonight and told me that she wants me on the monitor as much as possible. She needs to be seeing how baby is reacting and if any contractions are occurring. I keep getting told by nurses and doctors of how serious this condition is and that is why I am under watchful eye.

I have so many mixed emotions about this, and have had a total of 3 breakdowns today. (I'm embarrassed to admit it, but want to be truthful). This is difficult. I know it's all worth it, but leading up to it all, is very difficult. Can't sleep, uncomfortable, stressed out, emotional, scared of the unknown etc. Being hooked up and on bedrest for hours upon hours is not fun, and it's harder that Jaris is at work and half the day I spend doing it alone. I'm thankful for my visitors today, and for very thankful for my mom and dad for coming tonight to take me on my wheelchair ride and spend time with me. I was granted 30 minutes out with them, and we took full advantage of it. Here's some pictures from today!

Laura and Amy brought me Jamba Juice!

New IV, love that it's not in the hand!

Jter, Ams, and Baby Cadence came to visit!

They brought me candy, which was/is delicious!

Dad enjoying the recliner while on Facebook

Wheelchair ride after my breakdown. Hanging with the cows.

Mom and Me - Selfie in the cafeteria

Day 5 in the hospital is down. Per the doctor, I have 8 days til the scheduled c-section. The inner strength I have to find in this next week will help me become a stronger person later on. I plan on looking back at this and saying it was all worth the crying, frustration, restless and uncomfortable nights. Let go, Let God.